Time... passing
My children is growing
My mind can think
There's a little spark inside
But my curse still here
Hidden
Behind the shadows...
She comes to visit me every night
...every lonely moment.
                     ... visions of blood and blade!!!...
Now... my life is complete...
.... but my dark flame still alive!

                                      What can I do!!!!

Well...

I want to tell you... to every dark heart

My grief is gone

My melancholic heart can breath again

We are pregnant

Me and my Beloved Wife!!

Finally

A relief

A little pause on my harm addiction

A dream

My dream

A lifetime Dream!!!

Now...

...is true!!

And... to celebrate

My Beloved...

 This song is for you!!

Glory Night

Axel Rudi Pell

Alone at heart, I was searching for the one

Lost in love, falling tears in the dawn

A call for a job that day led me to that place

Climbing the stairs of doom when I saw your face

Coming undone

You're like an arrow to my heart

Glory night

One date to remember

Glory night

Never felt so strong before

Glory night

My dream, no surrender

Glory night

Two hearts forever more

Walking the same line, we share our life together

Our love's so strong, can't live without the other

No storm, no dark clouds can tear us apart

You're the chosen one deep down in my heart

Coming undone

You're like an arrow to my heart

Glory night

One date to remember

Glory night

Never felt so strong before

Glory night

My dream, no surrender

Glory night

Two hearts forever more

Translation:

Sozinho de coração, eu estava procurando de alguem

Perdido no amor, lágrimas caem na madrugada

Uma chamada para um trabalho nesse dia

 levou-me para aquele lugar

Estava subindo as escadas da perdição quando eu vi seu rosto

Vindo mais perto

Você é como uma flecha para o meu coração

Noite glóriosa

Uma data para lembrar

Noite glóriosa

Nunca me senti tão forte antes

Noite glóriosa

Meu sonho nunca vai se render

Noite glóriosa

Dois corações para sempre

Caminhando na mesma linha, partilhamos a nossa vida juntos

Nosso amor é tão forte, não pode um viver sem o outro

Nenhuma tempestade, nem nuvens escuras podem nos separar

Você é o única escolhida

No fundo do meu coração

Se desfazendo

Você é como uma flecha para o meu coração

Noite glóriosa

Uma data para lembrar

Noite glóriosa

Nunca me senti tão forte antes

Noite glóriosa

Meu sonho nunca vai se render

Noite glóriosa

Dois corações para sempre

Get out of me!!
Stop!
Don't be close!
I'm a misery companion
The angel with black wings
A plague bringer
A nightly shadow with no mercy
With no hope
I'm not bring the light to you
I'm the nothing walking among the fog
The dead rejected by the death
The one who wants to be alone
Blood and tears... and poison runs through my veins
I'm deadly
My speak is death...
...Is meaningless
I'm not your friend
I'm not exist!

The dreaming comes
Becoming a nightmare
Breathing...
Living...
Is nothing more than pain
Day after day
Tear after tear
A drop of blood
A red river flowing from my fist..
... My chest...
... My eyes...
Flowing and burning...From My... empty soul!

I don't want anybody to save me
My disgrace is my
My own...
I blame only myself
Me.











And I love to be one with the darkness
I know..
There's no way out
There's no way back







...it started with my birth ...

...and so will end with my death!

There's no way out!!!

There's no way out!!!

There's no way out!!!

                                                                                                                I can't stand anymore...

Walking through the garden of fire...

... on my mind 

I taste my chaos 

Taken to the edge of my life 

I surrender to insanity 

...folly 

...sensitivity 

Confusion of the soul

 

I can take that unholy feelings when the blade rip my body 

I became a bitch of myself

A whore...

... dirty slut!

I am a bucket of filth!

I absorb my venom, falling from my eyes 

The hate is so strong

The hate of my existence!!!

I covered in my disgrace 

...covered with my own blood 

painted with my scars..

I try... crying for a little more air 

humiliating me... naked in my desires and waste 

...begging for... a little more poison, a little more pain...

pain!!!

Pain to forget the pain!!!

My life it's a neverending show of pain!!!

I... I can't stand... hurts me

hurt

HURT!!! 

I'm drowning in my blood

The old blood of my chest 

My old heart 

...obscure 

...and malicious 

Me... Murderer of my joy.....

Self Harm...
Being like a doll
Making another scar...

Scar?!?

I living a scar!

It's so hard to live
I'm breathing but the air hurt's me!
I'm alive... but... I don't wanna to be...
I'm lost
I'm a looser
Sometimes I feel like a slayer! A avenger dressed in black! Ready to cut everyone who steps before me...
But, most of time... I'm a little girl! Walking in a dark forest, without direction, without hope... with razors in my hand... making my blood spill... playing with my scars... drinking my own tears!!!
I wanna leave... Leave the world of living... 
I need to rest! Rest my head, my soul, my heart...!!! 
I MUST...
I must...

...I must Die!

I'm sad!
My demons are dying in grief
Crying inside their dungeons
Inside me
I'm sad!
Loosing my will
Loosing what I feel
Lost in the depths of my sorrow
Bleeding for no one!
Standing on the edge of my life
Waiting for something to change
I'm so sad...
In the eternal darkness
There's no one to blame!

This song I dedicate for the love of my life..
For the One that never leave me alone, even when she can not understand entirely what is going on inside of me. She did never give up, even in my deepest cuts!

"Song For You"
(Lunatica)

"You hold my hand when I tremble with fear
You bring me light when I burst out in tears
And now I want to thank you, dear, for all the things you've done
I can't deny (that) you showed me the right way

Chorus:
For the light, for the love
For the truth in your eyes
I am grateful to have such a friend by my side
For the tears, for the joy
For not asking me why
We can hold our hands up and reach for the sky

You kept your faith when my words were untrue
You made me laugh when I was feeling blue
Always giving, never asking for more than a smile upon my face
Together we will conquer the whole world

Chorus

(You) don't have to worry
We'll stay together all of our days
You can trust in my words, you can rely on me
And when dark clouds obscure the sky
I'll be at your side
Until the weight on your shoulders fades away"

Tradução/Translation

"Canção Para Você"

(lunatica)

"Você segura minha mão quando eu tremo com medo
Você me traz a luz quando eu explodo em lágrimas
E agora eu quero te agradecer, querida, por todas as coisas que você tem feito.
Eu não posso negar (que) você me mostrou o caminho certo.

(Refrão):
Pela luz, pelo amor
Pela verdade em seus olhos
Sou grato por ter uma amiga como você ao meu lado
Pelas lágrimas, pelas alegrias
Por não me perguntar o porquê
Nós podemos manter nossas mãos erguidas e alcançar o céu

Você manteve sua fé quando minhas palavras não eram verdadeiras
Você me fez rir quando eu estava me sentido triste
Sempre oferecendo, nunca pedindo mais que um sorriso em meu rosto
Juntos nós conquistaremos o mundo inteiro

Refrão

(Você) não tem de se preocupar
Nós continuaremos juntos todos os nossos dias
Você pode acreditar nas minhas palavras, você pode confiar em mim
E quando as nuvens escuras obscurecer o céu
Estarei ao seu lado
Até o peso em seus ombros desaparecer"

 

Thank you my Beloved...
...my Life!

This vision can be wrong
But... my vision... is death!

The grief getting higher, day by day...
The sorrow still fucking me
The emptiness
The void.... dark void... without any horizon...
I can't describe what happens inside my head, cause, nothing happen... nothing...
Just a numb vision of myself... myself... myself is a piece of shit... I hate everything...
I Hate Myself
Hate me
Fuck Me....
I've lost my control long time ago
There's no more to be save!
There's no salvation!
Only the blade!
Only the rope!
Only the shame.... the SHAME!!!! Shame to breath the same air with you, filth humanity!!!
Hate for you...
Love... love... just for my girl
No love for you, people!!!!
I Hate Myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me=Nothing

No happiness
No smiling face
Only regrets
Regrets for my birth!

Goodbye

                                                   I Can Not Stand This Life, Anymore!

I'm dead already!!!

I'm a small part of myself
A little fragment of emptiness
A a forgot peace of me
Sad fate...
... for a sad heart

As the music said
"Trying to please they all / How Bitter Man He Is" or girl!

New cut

Old blood

Same question... What I have done?

Trapped in this maze

This rainbow without color

Lost forevermore

More grief for me... I can't live forever

This cage

This rage

This shame

This flame

...cold, cold,... black and cold!!!

This time I know
Somehow... I know
There's anybody here
Or out there
There's nothing more to give
Just pain, hate... I'm so scare!
Please, my heart... STOP!!
My soul cry
Hey... I'm crying
I...I...I'm dying
I just want to left behind... everything... anything...
This time.... I don't know...
                                                                                       
                          Chaos...                                            ...Perhaps... 

Please... somebody kill me...
...Before the sun comes out!
I want to live forever in this night!!!

Existence

"It's over it's finished, I am dead insideI'm not gonna feel anymoreI am dead, please bury me, I am dead

Our relation - creation of dark passionI am forever subdued and tranquilized


Your desertion - converting from my eyesMy feelings caught in your jar like fireflies


This sensation - frustrations of simplified mindsMy dreams they die as they lie on the naked floor


This dimension - ascension to sullen despairYour eyes they lie as we cry to the tired sky"


"Mortal love - I have lost...(2005)"

There's a spider crawling down the wall...
... By my side
Living on her cradle made with dark web!

Shadows covering my head
... Shadows of my past
... Shadows of my future
Making a profane structure around my present.

There's no way out of my fate
This is all... too late
Too late to life
Too late to death
Too late for me
Too late for... this shit, this world of nothing...

I love my darkness...
... I want my filth sex, my tragic history... 

...my lost final breath...

I wanna die, 
I wanna walking out of this picture...

I hate... I love... I hate... say die...
Death... blood... cum... hate... madness... hurt... this cuts... my skin... I see my flesh

Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead,Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead...

    Death by death...
... life, means nothing!!

Never smile
Never try
Never run
Never hide
Never sleep
Never wake
Never bitter
Never taste... the beauty of the ignorance...

Being a stranger
A kind of vicious beast
Living as a drifter
Hunting your soul... for my last feast

certain death... certain stroke
Please... I'll be no more
I'm no one
I'm all
I'm nothing
I'm in pain... eternal pain
... suffering..
hurt... please... go home...
get out
leave me
stay with me... blood... more blood
needles
blades
a rope
a darkness... dark candle... dark light

a little bit of freedom!!!!!!

....Never... never breath again!

Farewell!

Trancada
Dentro desta imensidão escura
Num horizonte gelito
Trancada
Sem ter onde percorrer
Sem ter medo, fome ou calma...

Vivendo no escuro...
...foi oque escolhi
Enxergo melhor nas sombras...
...Não a nada meu sem se destruir

Filha de meu ventre
Sou rainha e serpente
Alma negra... e coração escuro..
Passado e presente eu destruo
E nada quero de meu futuro...